Monday, March 03, 2003

hes making me mad.. i hang up on him but he keeps calling back
Matthew James says:
really does he like you
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
fuck i told him i have a stronger intrest somewhere else
Matthew James says:
really
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
yeah... i told him that millios of times.. and said i'd be friends but nothing more
Matthew James says:
thats crazy
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
yep... you know who it is i have intrest in
Matthew James says:
felix?
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
THATS LAURA"S DAD!
Matthew James says:
really
Matthew James says:
jj
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
no can you guess
Matthew James says:
is he a bodybuilder
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
Hmmmm yeah
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
are you thinking felix bourque?
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
hes a body buldier
Matthew James says:
hmm
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
?
Matthew James says:
my mind is clouded
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
i don't like him laura asked about him
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
???y
Matthew James says:
too many names
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
ahh ok
Matthew James says:
bodybuilders too many in mind
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
ahh ok ...
Matthew James says:
so whats up
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
nothig much just got in not long ago... chillin right now having a few drinks
Matthew James says:
nice
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
so do you know who i have intrest in?
Matthew James says:
not sure really
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
wel hess my height... dark hair.. always gel'ed
Matthew James says:
aww i'm always geled
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
but this guy is purrrrrrrrrrr
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
he has really nice kisses and strong arms to hld me in
Matthew James says:
oooooo
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
yeah... i feel safe in them
Matthew James says:
really i could freak some people out
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
but i like that
Matthew James says:
u do ifelly icky
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
that will never stop me from kissin you
Matthew James says:
really i a big slut
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
well did you fool around with a girl that night?
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
??
Matthew James says:
lol hammered big time nope i'm waiting till mariage from now only
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
really.... i can honestly deal with that
Matthew James says:

Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
if you want to do that i can totally respect it... but the second you don'tl... you know the#
Matthew James says:
awsome
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
i'd like to wait too... but i know i'll do it b4 marriage but i don't want to do it right away
Got Company........amphedamine frosting says:
well larua and the rest are gone... they were having a field day in my room
Matthew James says:
i may never have sex again
amphedamine frosting says:
are you talkin about oral too?
Matthew James says:
nope just intercourse
amphedamine frosting says:
so whats happenin to tiein me up?
Matthew James says:
hmm i gotta think
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:

Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
anyways sweets.. you seem busy... i'll let yah be
Matthew James says:
naa sorry
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
i knew a matt james... way back inthe day.. i think hes in jail now or dead
Matthew James says:
dead?
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
yeah either or
Matthew James says:
wow
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
yeah he was a bad ass
Matthew James says:
lol
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
no really... the cops were an every day thing in elementary
Matthew James says:
nice
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
yeah got to see my dad
Matthew James says:
hugeness
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
yeah so ma mama knows that i talk to you now... i kinda said i met you this past weekend
Matthew James says:
kewl
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
yeah and were talking on the net now
Matthew James says:
nice
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
she doesn't know much.. but its all good... she goes are you seeing him.. and i was like holy shit i wish i was with him now
Matthew James says:
aww
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
hehe... everyhitn gis goign to be cool.... it was always hard on me b4 not telling her... but this time i told her real early
Matthew James says:
good plan
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:

Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
matt you drive me wildly crazy.. idon;t know what it is about you
Matthew James says:
same here
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
i nkow you haven't been yourself lately.. and i havn'et been mine..
Matthew James says:
agreed
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:
if only i had a pic of you that i could look at when i felt lonely..
Matthew James says:
hhh
Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:

Who will tie me up now? amphedamine frosting says:

Matthew James says:
i'm goona be in muscle mag
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
really
Matthew James says:

Who will tie me up now? PORN says:

Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
i'll wait a week to tell you something
Matthew James says:
oh really
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
yeah... all i can say now.. is don't fuck withme
Matthew James says:
hmm i may never have sex again
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
nono its nothing sexual... its just mind think
Matthew James says:
really i don't know if i'm good enough for u babe
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
just be straight up with me. the things youve old me so far... haven't changed how i feel
Matthew James says:
fair enough
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
i don't know how you still feel about me
Matthew James says:
scared
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
i promise you.. theres nothign to be c\scared about
Matthew James says:
r u sure
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
do you want me to promise that i'll never try to hurt you... mentally or physically
Matthew James says:
I can't be hurt kat if i'm gonna wait till marriage it's only fair you have other partners
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
Matt why should sex matter in a relationship... i've ben in relationships where i haven't had sex... and they were the best ones
Matthew James says:
i don't kat
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
you don't what?
Matthew James says:
just know
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
you don't wanna give it a chance?
Matthew James says:
of course. but i don't want to fuck u up
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
matt if i'm willin to take the chance at something that will make me the happiest i've ever been... i'm giogn for it
Matthew James says:
really
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
yes... yo umake me smile... yo umake me feel safe.. and i don't feel presured into sex with you... i realy like that
Matthew James says:


Matthew James says:
wow thats great
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
i don't care about your past... right now i have respect for you... and you'll have it until you break my trust in you
Matthew James says:
thats the problem. i'm not sure that i could ever be trusted.
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
matt just try, for me
Matthew James says:
of course
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
you never know... you may be the happiest you've ever been with me.. .hell you may look back on you past and be like wtf... i'm glad i met kat... never know
Matthew James says:
wow your are so positive!
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
all i ask is to be up front with me... if were datig and you feel you want to go out and bang osme girl.. tell me... don't let me fid out form some friend down the road... i'll be hurt but even more
Matthew James says:
Kat i won't ever propbably have sex again
Matthew James says:
please don't worry
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
i don't care.. if thats what you want i'l completly respect you
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
i have toys.. don't worry
Matthew James says:
aww
Matthew James says:
u DO!
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
ummm i ooops
Matthew James says:
do u have a pocket rocket!

i liked being held by him... and holding him and kissin him... it was great.. and i miss that.. all the other relationships wer sex this sex that.. i miss the good feelings i got.. i wish i could have them again... and i want them with you
Matthew James says:
awsome he is what I want kat
Matthew James says:
...
Matthew James says:
A girl who i can trust. A girl who is kewl and will like me for me
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
you can have it..... trust me and i'll trust you
Matthew James says:
awsome
Matthew James says:
wait
Matthew James says:
before i go
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
yes
Matthew James says:
I just wanted to answer you question
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
ok
Matthew James says:
ME! i will make u fell so good.
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
will you hold me? kiss me? make me feel good about myself and not put yourself down cause of things you did in your past
Matthew James says:
that and so much more.
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
just be yourself and i'll be very happy
Matthew James says:
awsome. but i want to tie u up and make u fell like a godess
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
haha we'll see babe i'm might just beat yyou to it
Matthew James says:
really well i hav'nt had it in a while so i'm gonna be a minute man 4 a while
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
well i'll hide the evidence
MJ says:
where?
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
*slurp* *swallow*
Matthew James says:
WTF your are kidding
Matthew James says:
?
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
ummn no
Matthew James says:
holy shit
Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
i told you that!
Matthew James says:
wanna like just leave and get married
Matthew James says:
I forgot
Matthew James says:
crazy
Matthew James says:

Who will tie me up now? PORN says:
nah no marriage right yet... give me a few years the i'll see
ts kat says:
matt your great
Matthew James says:
you really think that!
its kat says:
i do
Matthew James says:
wow i have never had a girl sober say that
its kat says:
i have feelings for you and they grow stronger all the time
Matthew James says:
really
its kat says:
yes
Matthew James says:
wait till u see me next time
ts kat says:
y?
Matthew James says:
7 pounds heavier today. probably by the ned of the week i will be 10 pounds heavier
Matthew James says:
what if i told u I was a fighter
Matthew James says:
could u accept it?
its kat says:
don't get hurt.. and well if they touch your face i'll smack em!
Matthew James says:
I don't mean some punk street fighter
its kat says:
promise i won't call tiny down from montreal
Matthew James says:
I mean like a realy mma fighter someone who gets paid to do it. like the ufc. i have been doing it my whole life thats why i train so hard in the gym next year i'm gonna start pro
Matthew James says:
who is tiny?
its kat says:
yeah thats cool... just don't get fucked up too bad..
its kat says:
tiny... my man who watches my back
Matthew James says:
lol it's the only thing i'm good at. he does like how?
its kat says:
kept me out of a lot of shit.. with drugs gangs... you name it...
Matthew James says:
i c
its kat says:
he was there when i shot that guy...
Matthew James says:
damm he must be a good friend
kat says:
i'd call him now and he'd be here in 3 hours
Matthew James says:
really how come?
its kat says:
got a friend with a jet... he was there in 4 hours when i told him what bryan did to me... he went right to halifax
Matthew James says:
hwo is bryan
Matthew James says:
what did he do to you?
Matthew James says:
did he touch you?
its kat says:
almost raped me...
Matthew James says:
motherfucker really!
Matthew James says:
Fuck I hate some people!
its kat says:
yep casue i wouldn't have sex with him
Matthew James says:
I would have brone both of his arms
Matthew James says:
co he couldn;t jerk off
its kat says:
i got the nerve to tell tiny 2 days later and he went to halifax wehre bry was and bea the shit outta him


Matthew James says:
Hey Kat!
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:
MATT!!

Matthew James says:
Hey
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:

Matthew James says:
whats up?
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:
i'm sorry about the other night...
Matthew James says:
yeah
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:
not really but kinda
Matthew James says:
My intentions were I was gonna hit the mile and suprise you. but it didn't quite work out
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:
i got to the mile... and well left at 1:30 and went back uptown
Matthew James says:
kewl
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:
do you know why my hand is fucked up?
Matthew James says:
your hand?
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:
yeah i think i punched something
Matthew James says:
not sure. i was fine when I saw you
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:
i'm sure you would have walked by if i didn't say hey to you aoutside
Matthew James says:
why did u think i went outside
Matthew James says:
maybe to see you
yep its kat...matt where are you? says:
well you could have seen me inside but you walked out
Matthew James says:
yeah I jetted couldn't handle that place at the time
yep its kat.. says:
yeah i went outside cause my ex was calling and he was out there and had to say somehting to me...
Matthew James says:
same shit here. your friend tammy was wavin to me and shit
Matthew James says:
then i booked
yep its kat.. says:
sweet thats a lie
Matthew James says:
no its not
Matthew James says:
she keep fucking waving to me
yep its kat.. says:
yeah it is... she was outside driving by in a cab when i was flippin out that somone was callin me and you were coming over to calm me down
Matthew James says:
no way she was inside at a table with another girl and 2 dudes. she even sent me a message asking me why i didn't talk to her at the oasis. so it was her for sure. and she asked me to fuck her some time. I totally deleated my ck profile
yep its kat.. says:
no yah didn't i saw it this morning
Matthew James says:
yeah i did
yep its kat.. says:
she wasn't inside matt...it must have ben some other girl
Matthew James says:
ok
yep its kat.. says:
she said she saw you talking to me.. the only time you were doing that was outside
Matthew James says:
hmm
yep its kat.. says:
did you see joe in there?
Matthew James says:
of course he is my best friend
Matthew James says:
i went out with him
yep its kat.. says:
did i see him?
Matthew James says:
i don't know
yep its kat.. says:
hope not.. he called me at 5 am beggin me to come over.. i kept hanging up
Matthew James says:
not sure
yep its kat.. says:
meh... what else did you do that night
Matthew James says:
just drank dance at bit with joe and mike
yep its kat.. says:
fun fun...
yep its kat.. says:
i got home at 3 and was still drinkin.... that night was hell
Matthew James says:
really
Matthew James says:
ex's and sour chicks don't bother me anymore
yep its kat.. says:
yeah... you won't believe the things goign through my mind about you....
Matthew James says:
what?
yep its kat.. says:
i made jezz come back up town with me after the mile to find you
Matthew James says:
i was probably at the oasis
Matthew James says:
or darcy's
yep its kat.. says:
yeah we went to those places too
yep its kat.. says:
when i got home the cabie carried me in
Matthew James says:
aww
yep its kat.. says:
i was fucked
Matthew James says:
same here
yep its kat.. says:
seeing you at 12 ish... thinking you were at work... walking into the oasis seeing you, thinkin you were back to your old ways' meanwhile i'm drunk as all get out
yep its kat.. says:
not a good combo]
Matthew James says:
sorry. my plan was to drink and go to the mile with the boys. but for some reason the cab dropped us uptown.then inside the oasis. it was bad. but whatever
yep its kat.. says:
it was just... me thinking you were at work till 1
Matthew James says:
naa 11.if i would have stayed to 1 they would have payed me overtime so they sent osmeone else in
yep its kat.. says:
babe just be straight up plz
Matthew James says:
straight up- i'm me. I was glad to see you. then u jetted and i was upset and then whatever
yep its kat.. says:
i was upset cause i turened around and you were gone.. you came back cause i could feel you there .. turned around to smile at you and introduce to you angela and you were gone again.. so i was like fuck this i'm outta here
yep its kat.. says:
i just caught you out of the side of my eye when i was leaving oleary's
Matthew James says:
i realized I couldn't handle it all
yep its kat.. says:
handel what
Matthew James says:
everything
yep its kat.. says:
so you go back to the oasis
Matthew James says:
u were there too
yep its kat.. says:
yeah... i don't have to worry about anyone... no one is out to get in my pants... i can go anywheres except rockies
Matthew James says:
i c
yep its kat.. says:
i can't talk on the net abou this stuff
Matthew James says:
about what stuff
yep its kat.. says:
tht night.... i have to see your eyes
Matthew James says:
y?
yep its kat.. says:
when i see ppls eyes i can see if they are telling me what i wann ahere or what really wnet on
Matthew James says:
i understand
yep its kat.. says:
plus i wanna see you when i'm sober
Matthew James says:
k i'm off like a prom dress kat. i will ttyl
yep its kat.. says:
fuck matt
Matthew James says:
?
yep its kat.. says:
what are you doing today
Matthew James says:
training eating working
yep its kat.. says:
alright.. i was goigng to see if you wanted to see me but thats ok
Matthew James says:
here we go
yep its kat.. says:
?
Matthew James says:
i'm out like a fat kid in dodge ball
yep its kat.. says:
nono don't worry your busy????
yep its kat.. says:
what??
Matthew James says:
there's only one thing that keeps me alive every day and thats training. It comes first before anything even my life.
yep its kat.. says:
yes i know... thats why i said don't worry... matt your good at it and i honestly think your going to go somewhere with it... don't not go to see me..
yep its kat.. says:
you scared me there i thought you were going to say you don't want to bother with me
Matthew James says:
Naa kat there's just alot about me you don't understand. right now to you i probably look like some punked out player or something. regardless i gtg
yep its kat.. says: